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January 19, 2018 by Marcus Leave a Comment

Alex pushes the door open wide and steps into the darkness. He lifts his hand and searches for the wall, shuddering at first contact at its coolness. He gingerly moves his hand up-and-down, side-to-side, until he comes across a light switch. He flips the switch upward and squints at the sudden brightness, blinking magnificently. He turns and closes the door, then kicks off his shoes.

The crisp air sends a shiver down his spine as he makes his way deeper into the house, turning on more lights. He coughs a couple of times as the stench of rotten apples and spoilt milk invade his prominent nostrils. In the kitchen, he opens the window above the sink, his attention quickly shifting to the pile of mildewy pots and plates caked with bits of food. He tries not to breathe.

Alex withdraws to the living room and stands there, his arms folded, embalmed by the disquieting silence that strikes a dissonant discord of a past long forgotten. His round golden brown eyes rove the room and, taking in the scene around him, draws in several deep breaths. The framed eight-by-ten photographs of him and his brother Charles, taken the day of their respective graduations from university, that dominate the mantelpiece like bookends. The frayed royal blue wool upholstered wing chair that sits in the corner next to the brown brick soot-stained fireplace, and where he remembers his mother retreating each night to read her large print Bible. The dark cherry wood coffee table cluttered with unopened mail, receipts, and worn copies of Christian Reader and The Daily News, the local paper. His last trip ‘home’ was two years ago for his father’s funeral. Now his mother is dead. Oddly enough, he doesn’t feel sad. Really, he doesn’t feel much of anything. Shouldn’t that worry him?

He’s not sure what any of it means, to be back in this house. The place where he was born. The place that summons him whenever death calls. The place that cannot claim him. What could it possibly mean when the simple truth is this: he’s been running so long. Running from the man he never became. Running from the man he never wanted to be. Running from the place where he was born.

Alex sits down on the brown leather sofa, exhausted and surprised by the tears banking in his eyes. “It’s a house,” he mumbles at the listless walls, “not home. And I don’t live here anymore.”

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Velocity

January 12, 2018 by Marcus Leave a Comment

Wednesday, 7:59 am. I wait inside the Queen and Providence bus shelter for Bus 43 (Belmont Hills – Downtown), which ferries me to work. The rain falls against the dark grey skies. A silver-haired woman paces the sidewalk outside the bus shelter, scrunching her hawkish eyebrows as she complains to Bob and Mary and Ethel that the bus is late. She’s there every morning but never gets on the bus. Did I mention that I’m the only one at the bus stop with her? Yesterday, in deep conversation with Mary about Bob’s recurring sexual dysfunction, her top dentures flew out of her mouth and bounced into the storm drain. She reached into her black shopping bag-size purse and pulled out another set as if this happens to her all the time.

The bus arrives a few minutes past eight. I display my pass for inspection and offer a faint smile to the grey-haired bus driver.

The bus driver snarls and closes the door. “Next time hold it up so I can see it.”

I roll my eyes and take my usual seat that faces into the bus to have more legroom.

At the next stop, the young man wearing the blue baseball cap gets on first. When the bus driver scolds him for not holding up his bus pass, he says, “Yo, dude … your wife still not giving it up?” He grabs his crotch. “Maes-tǝr-beit!” He slams himself into the seat before the rear door, next to the man wearing a bowtie, and sucks his teeth. “Loser…”

The smells of wet earth, coffee and stale cigarette smoke (from the guy seated close to me) overtake the bus. The young man wearing a charcoal grey mackintosh studies me with adolescent curiosity. I travel with the same people every day. They get on and off the bus like corpses — stiff and unconscious of the world around them. We don’t say hello, don’t speak. My eyes rove the bus to avoid direct eye contact with anyone, anticipating the War Memorial that signals the approaching bus stop where I get off.

“Good morning, Mr. Bus Driver. How are you this fine wet day?”

I shift my gaze to the front of the bus, blinded by a shiny jacket with floral patterns enveloping a big-boned woman. Her black frizzy hair shoots out in all directions from her round head. The rouge smeared on her face cements in place the smile stretching from ear to ear.

“Next time hold it up so I can see it,” the bus driver says as he closes the front door.

The woman’s round eyes widen but she’s still smiling. “Oh, yes, we are chipper this morning!” She scans the bus for a seat.

The young man in the charcoal grey mackintosh and a middle-aged woman wearing a cadmium yellow raincoat occupy the seats at the front of the bus, reserved for the elderly and pregnant women. They move. A couple of people snicker, both amused and annoyed at how this woman — with her over-enthusiastic and narcissistic Guy Smiley smile — has managed to disrupt the peacefulness of their morning commute.

“Thank you, thank you,” says the woman in the shiny jacket. “So kind, so kind.”

The young man in the charcoal grey mackintosh sits down across from me, smirks and holds his narrow eyes to mine. I glance away when his light-grey eyes penetrate to my core. The middle-aged woman squeezes between the stale cigarette smoke-smelling man and me. The scent of Bengay and cinnamon fill my nostrils, and I tie my face in knots. The young man across from me sniggers. I check my watch. I need off this bus. I’m relieved to see the flag hoisted atop the War Memorial. Freedom from this hell is two stops away.

The bus stops for a red light at the Marshall and Providence intersection. I move to the rear door and, when the bus edges forward, reach for the blue cord above the head of the young man wearing the charcoal grey mackintosh. Before I can pull the cord he presses the red square button on the pole in front of him and nods. The bus stops, and the green light above the door comes on. I step into the torrential rain and, having left my umbrella at home, bolt toward the seven-storey office building across the street.

*          *          *

“Good afternoon,” the bus driver says as I board Bus 43 (Downtown – Belmont Hills) at ten minutes to five. He closes the door and sings off-key into the intercom, “Next stop, Marshall and Providence, next stop.” Today he sings to the theme music from “I Dream of Jeannie.” Yesterday, he sang-spoke a slightly modified version to “Old MacDonald had a Farm.” Everyone chuckles, and then we return to our self-imposed meditative states.

I wedge myself into the two-seater behind the seats reserved for the elderly and pregnant women, and stare out the window at the pewter skies.

The stout man next to me, with a Sherlock Holmes-esque moustache, reeks of Old Spice and alcohol. Is that what makes his bald head oily? He speaks with a thick lisp. “Eth-cuz me.” He pulls the blue cord. He doesn’t have any teeth. My wide-eyed look of horror causes the young man from this morning, in the charcoal grey mackintosh, to cover his mouth to stifle his giggling. I smile. The young man rocks gently back and forth, ready to explode with laughter. Then the young woman seated across the aisle (quite the sight with her spiked dyed black hair and piercings in her lip, nose and eyebrow) snickers. The man sitting next to me staggers off the bus at the next stop. Before the bus driver can close the door the young man in the charcoal grey mackintosh lets out a shrilly laugh, and everyone gawks at him. He colours and lowers his head.

The bus stops at the War Memorial, and that shiny jacket with floral patterns mounts the steps one at a time. Mrs. Guy Smiley says, with the same cheerfulness of the morning, “Good afternoon, Mr. Bus Driver. How are you this fine wet day?”

“This is the day that the Lord has made,” the bus driver sings-speaks. “Let us rejoice and be glad in it.”

She places her hand to her chest and grins. “Oh, indeed … indeed.”

The young man in the charcoal grey mackintosh, at hearing that manly voice and set to erupt in another fit of laughter, moves to the empty seat next to me. He’s bent forward with his head between his knees, trying not to laugh.

Mrs. Guy Smiley turns to the young man. “Thank you, thank you. So kind, so kind.”

The young man waves her off and, after a time, sits upright. I sneak a sidelong glance and decide that he’s about thirty, his dark full mane covering the top of his ears and falling flat on the back of his neck. He has a long hooked nose with prominent nostrils and does not wear a ring on his ring finger. He looks at me, his clean-shaven face red from laughing, and I drop my gaze.

The bus hasn’t moved in some time, parked midway across the MacKenzie Bridge that spans the Stockdale River and that separates the downtown from the suburbs. I get off at the first stop after the bus crosses the bridge. In the morning, the young man in the charcoal grey mackintosh gets on the bus at the stop with the gentleman in the blue baseball cap. Did his uncontrollable fits of laughter cause him to miss his stop? Everyone stares out the windows as sirens blare and emergency response vehicles navigate through the bumper-to-bumper traffic. The rain, which had stopped around lunchtime, falls in hard pounding sheets, preventing us from seeing much of anything. The young man leans across in front of me to peer out the window, his left hand on my right thigh to balance himself. I savour his musky scent of lavender and vanilla.

“Sorry.” The young man leans back in his seat. “Do you think it’s an accident?”

I shrug. “Nah. Probably another jumper.” Four successful, and one not-so-successful, suicide attempts this year make the conclusion plausible.

Mrs. Guy Smiley stiffens. “Oh, really? How exciting! I’ve never seen a jumper before.”

I look at her, my eyebrows scrunched, as if to say, “Are you for real?” The young man next to me approaches delirium. I cut my eyes at him. “You need to get off this bus.”

He howls. “I know!”

Mrs. Guy Smiley shimmers in her seat. “I sure would like some of your happy pills.”

The girl with the spiked dyed black hair loses control, and her nasal, cackling laugh ricochets off the walls. Laughter consumes us all.

The bus rolls forward and we resume our self-imposed meditative states. I pull on the blue cord and the bell sounds. The young man next to me walks towards the front door. I follow. Mrs. Guy Smiley smiles at us. The young man in the charcoal grey mackintosh again waves her off, attempting to hold in his crowing laugh. I nod. The bus stops, and the young man rushes onto the sidewalk and opens his umbrella. I run to the bus shelter and take refuge, hoping the rain will let up soon.

The young man waits to cross the street. He looks at me, almost smiling, and then darts through the oncoming traffic to catch the bus approaching in the opposite direction. I watch as he sits down next to a window at the back of the bus. He looks in my direction and offers a slight wave as the bus pulls away. Could it be an acknowledgement of our interconnectedness? Maybe.

I sprint towards my apartment building when the rain lets up a bit. The young man and the others on the bus — maybe we are connected, part of each other’s fabric, entangled in an intricate net of relationships. What will the young man in the charcoal grey mackintosh do tonight? Does he have someone waiting for him at home? I thought that we lived separate orders or reality — until today — when we found our velocity.

Perhaps tomorrow we’ll say hello.

 

A slightly modified version of this story first appeared in the Fall issue of Other Voices Magazine in 2010.

Filed Under: Short Stories Tagged With: amwriting, fiction, indieauthors, shortstory, writing

When Love Falls

January 5, 2018 by Marcus Leave a Comment

“I know it sounds crazy,” Sam said, his gaze locked on the duck confit he’d barely touched.

“Sounds crazy?” Nancy asked, the contempt rippling through her usually silvery voice. “It is crazy. And stupid.”

“But what am I supposed to do? I mean, I don’t want —”

“Don’t say it,” Nancy broke in. “Don’t you dare say you don’t want to lose him.”

“I don’t…” Sam looked up, tears banking in his round brown eyes. “I don’t want to lose him.”

“Give me strength, Lord … give me strength.” Nancy turned to her right and swatted at the dark-haired man seated next to her. “Isaac, please … a little help here.”

“Look, Sam…” Isaac rolled his muscular shoulders and didn’t look right at Sam but in his direction. “It’s not that you’ll lose Mark. You’ve already lost him. Deep down, you know it’s true.”

Sam opened his mouth to speak, but the words clung to the back of his throat. As much as he wanted to protest, he couldn’t. Isaac and Nancy, his friends since university, had always been honest with him … even when it hurt. But he wasn’t ready to give up, to walk out on the man who’d shown him the pathway to love.

“Maybe I should just … give it a try,” Sam said weakly.

“It’s not love,” Nancy said with disgust.

“I’m with Nancy on this.” Isaac finally looked Sam square in the eyes. “It can’t possibly work. And you won’t be happy.”

“If Ron came home,” Nancy said after draining her gin and tonic, “and said he wanted his mistress to move in with us…” She sat back in her chair and threw Sam a knowing look. “He’d be out on his fine ass like that.” She snapped her fingers.

Sam rubbed his eye. “Mark says —”

“He’ll say anything to get you on his side,” Nancy said bluntly. “He’s playing you.”

“He’s not playing me,” Sam spat.

“He’s not…” Nancy’s voice pitched high and, with disbelief blazing in her azure blue eyes, she stood. “I’m going to the ladies’ room.” She slapped Isaac’s arm. “You better have talked some sense into him by the time I get back.”

When Nancy was gone, Isaac shifted into the chair she’d vacated to sit directly across from Sam. “We’re your friends, Sam, and we care about you. We can’t tell you want to do, but…” He reached across the table and briefly held his hand to Sam’s. “Mark cheated on you, and as much as you try to pretend like you’re not fazed by it, you are. I see it. I see the dead in your eyes. And the solution isn’t to let the other man move in.”

“I don’t know what to do,” Sam said, unable to stop the tears streaking down his face.

“Take a stand,” Isaac said. “Put yourself first because you deserve better.”

Nancy, back at the table, slid onto the bench next to Sam and held his hand. Then she trained her gaze at Isaac. “He’d never be in this mess if you had —”

“Don’t go there, Nancy,” Isaac cut in.

“I’m just saying that the two of you…” She pointed to the two men. “Oh, for Christ’s sake, Isaac … just tell him.”

Sam pulled his hand out of Nancy’s loose grasp and rubbed his forehead. “What’s she talking about now?”

“Nothing,” Isaac grunted.

“No, no, this has to stop.” Nancy leaned back, her eyes locked on Sam as she pointed at Isaac. “He loves you. He’s always been in love with you.”

“Fuck you, Nancy. Fuck you!” Isaac pushed back his chair and bolted from the table.

Sam turned to Nancy. “Why? Why would you do that?”

“Whenever something goes wrong, who do you call first?” Nancy raised an eyebrow. “When your car broke down last month, you called Isaac. When you broke your leg last year, you called Isaac to pick you up from the hospital. When your mother died, who did you call to drive you to the airport?” She made a play for his hand and held it tightly. “And he came … every time to support you. No matter what, no matter, no questions asked. Why didn’t you ever call Mark?”

Sam dropped his head.

Nancy squeezed Sam’s hand, let go and stood. “When you wake up from this nightmare, you’ll see that you deserve better. And you won’t get any better than Isaac. I’m going to find him and sweet-talk my way back into his good graces.” She winked and moved off.

Sam sat there, still, as Nancy’s words reverberated through his thoughts. He loves you. He’s always been in love with you. But that’s crazy. Isaac and me, we’re just… Sam’s body went rigid. Nancy was right. Every time he was in trouble, Isaac had bailed him out. Always. An acidic taste edged its way up his throat. That was a sign of a shift and he knew it. God, I’m such a fool! He leaned forward, rested his elbows on the table and hid his face in his hands. His world had just imploded, and he wasn’t sure — when the dust had settled and all the shrapnel had been removed — if he’d survive.

“Sam…”

Sam, slow to uncover his face, recognized that husky voice. He levelled his gaze on the black-haired beauty standing on the other side of the table. “Mark … what are you doing here?”

“We need to talk,” Mark said, pulled out a chair and sat down.

“There’s nothing to talk about,” Sam said, surprised by the confidence surging in his voice.

“I love —”

“You don’t love me. If you did, I’d be enough. And your kind of love I can do without.” Sam stood and started to walk away.

“Sam, don’t —”

Sam surprisingly found himself flipping Mark the bird.

Maybe he’d survive this after all.

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Brothers

December 13, 2017 by Marcus Leave a Comment

“Get off my back,” Todd barked, reaching for his beer stein.

“Do you know what you even want to do with your life?” Jeremy asked.

“Damned if I know!” Todd’s words reflected the fiery rage gleaming in his brown eyes.

“‘Damned if I know,’” Jeremy repeated, then sucked his teeth. “So the game plan is to just sit here, sulk, and drink your life away?”

Here was the Lighthouse, an Irish pub popular with the Georgetown locals. But for Todd, it was more than a pub. It was the place where he could, drunk, chase away his demons. The place where, drunk, he could look himself in the mirror and not feel repulsed. The place where, drunk, he felt safe against a world crushing him.

Todd tapped the bar counter twice and, when the bald bartender looked at him, signalled for another beer.

“Really?” Jeremy shook his head. “Do you really think you need another?”

Todd drained his drink and set the beer stein to the side. “Why the fuck do you care if I have another?”

“Because you’re my brother and I care about you,” Jeremy said, turning slightly to his right on the bar stool. “I want to help you, Todd. I really do. But this…” He pointed at the beer the bartender had just placed in front of his brother. “You need to do something besides … drink.”

“If you’re not going to help…” Todd bit down on his lip. “Why are you here?”

Jeremy bristled. “Why am I here?” He pulled a folded piece of paper from the inside pocket of his suit jacket and held it out to Todd. “Here.”

“What’s that?”

“Why I’m here,” Jeremy spat. “Take it, Todd.”

Todd, holding his brother’s gaze, eventually took the paper and unfolded it. “Is this a joke?”

“You said you needed money for your rent, so I made the cheque out to your landlord.” Jeremy cupped his hand to Todd’s shoulder. “I’m not paying for you to drink your life away.”

Todd crumpled the cheque into a ball and hurled it behind the bar.

“Fuck, you’re an ass.” Jeremy polished off the last bit of scotch in his glass, then flagged down the server and settled the tab. He slid off his stool and looked down at his brother. “I’m not doing this again. Don’t you … remember what drinking did to Dad?”

“Don’t!” Todd took a large swig of his beer. He didn’t like talking about their father, or being compared to him. Drunk, his father beat him with whatever had been in arm’s reach — a belt, a frying pan, a beer bottle. Drunk, his father couldn’t stay sober long enough to work, and lost his job and his home. Drunk, his father passed out while driving and crashed into a concrete utility pole. No, Todd wasn’t his father and wouldn’t become him. He had his drinking under control. That was what he told himself.

“It doesn’t have to be like this,” Jeremy said.

Todd set his beer down on the bar with a hard clunk and locked his gaze on Jeremy. “You have no idea what it’s like … always living in the shadow of the great Jeremy Miller. Author. Professor. Person extraordinaire.” Tears banked in his eyes. “I was fifteen, and you left me there … in that house … with him. Every day after you left Dad used me as his punching bag. Every day for three years, until the accident, I suffered. Where were you? Where was my big brother?”

“I got out,” Jeremy shot back. “I told you to get out, too. Did you listen?”

“Where was I supposed to go?”

There was a silence.

“I’m sorry.” Jeremy ran his hand over his mouth. “I stayed as long as I could. And I tried to protect you…”

Todd looked down. That was true. When their father started beating on him, Jeremy always threw himself between them. Jeremy took the blows without crying until their father got bored and walked away.

“It can be different now,” Jeremy said cautiously. “If you want it to be.”

“Really?” Todd raised his head. “How?”

“Come live with me.”

“Me … live with … you?” Todd, rubbing his eye, laughed. “What would Aiden think?”

“Doesn’t matter. You’re my family. Back then…” Jeremy slipped his hands into his pockets. “I let you down once. I won’t do that again.” He paused. “But I have two conditions.”

Todd sucked his teeth. “There’s always conditions with you.”

“You stop drinking and see a therapist.”

“Can I finish this beer at least?”

“I’d rather you didn’t.”

Todd picked up his beer, chugged until it was gone and then let out a loud belch.

“Classy.”

“This is so fucked up.” Todd leaned forward, rested his elbows on the bar and hid his face in his hands. He’d been crashing on his friend Dylan’s sofa after being evicted six weeks ago, and testing the limits of their friendship. He’d lost his job, too, because he never showed up on time, if at all. He uncovered his face and winced at the acidic taste in his mouth. Christ, maybe I’m exactly like my father.

“So?” Jeremy shook his head. “I know you were evicted, Todd. Dylan called me last week.”

“Then why…” Todd stood. “Dylan’s a good guy and I’m driving him crazy. So I guess I don’t have a choice.”

“Maybe this is the moment when you figure out what you want to do with your life,” Jeremy said, throwing his arm around Todd’s shoulders. “And I’ll be there to help.”

“Promise?”

“Promise.”

They started for the exit, and for the first time in his life Todd felt the misery cloaked around him starting to fall away. Could things really be different?

Maybe … if he could stay sober.

Sober, he stood a chance of remaking himself and his life.

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Hooked

November 30, 2017 by Marcus 3 Comments

From across the crowded room, I glimpse the round caramel face glowing with inner contentment. Then I see the gold-winning smile, and instantly I’m hooked. He doesn’t notice me, though. How can he? People are elbowing each other to gain the front position, wanting to be the first to shake his hand or pat him on the back. I don’t know who is or why he’s so popular, but now I’m determined to find out.

I turn to my cousin, Ethan, who’s standing next to me, and tap his arm. “Is he why we’re here?” I don’t need to point, and by the sly look on Ethan’s face, he knows exactly who I’m talking about.

“Yes,” Ethan says, that one word resonating his annoyance.

“But…” My throat locks, like it did back in high school when I went to ask Grayson Ball to the prom. That didn’t go so well. “Who is he?”

“Oh, Tobias,” Ethan says in his crotchety tone, “please don’t make a fool of yourself. You can’t afford to have your jaw broken again.”

A broken jaw. That’s what I got for asking Grayson to the prom. Despite our regular hookups in the woods behind the school, where we took turns sucking each other off, he wasn’t gay.

“Just tell me who he is,” I say askance.

Ethan takes a long sip of his wine, turning slightly away to survey the room. He’s doing it all on purpose … to torment me. Just like when we were kids. “What’s a boner?” I’d asked him one day, when we were ten, on the way home from school. He smirked and kept walking. Ethan was older, and I thought that meant he knew everything … about life and boys. That’s why I looked up to him. But he could be a cocky son of a bitch. Back then and now.

I kick his foot. “Ethan!”

“Sean Mendonça. He’s a writer.”

“Do you know him?”

Ethan throws me a knowing look. “We wouldn’t be here if I didn’t.”

“So you can —”

“Absolutely not,” Ethan interrupts, his eyes on fire and locked on me. “I’m not playing matchmaker. And if you need to get laid, there’s a gay bar two blocks down the street.”

I focus on the crowd, searching the faces for his, but I can’t find it. He’s hidden behind his fans now clamouring for autographs and selfies. I’m annoyed that they’re taking up all his time. Shouldn’t he be working the rest of the room? Really, I just want him working me — to feel his reddish-brown lips touch mine, the weight of his arms wrapped around me, to inhale every single breath of him.

Then it happens, as if God hears my prayer and answers it. He bursts through the multitude, shaking hands along the way as he nears Ethan and me. My mouth goes dry, my stomach clenches and, oh God … my cock quickly swells.

“Sean, I want you to meet my cousin, Tobias,” Ethan says, almost with a snicker. “He’s a big fan.”

“A pleasure,” Sean says and grips my hand.

Our eyes lock, and Sean doesn’t immediately let go. I’m not sure he’s ever planning on letting go. Maybe he’s waiting for me to say something, but I just stare back at him. His dark-brown eyes hold me in a trance, my mouth agape and unable to say a word. The unexpected elbow in my side makes me wince. I shoot a menacing look at Ethan, turn back to Sean and finally spit out, “He-Hello.”

The handshake is over, yet the chill cast over my body remains as Sean moves off.

“Smooth,” Ethan says, chuckling. “Is that how you pick up guys?”

I punch Ethan in the arm and stare him down. Like he used to do with me when we were kids. It was his way of announcing his arrival, leaving me to explain — unconvincingly — the bruises on my arm to my mother. “What the hell was that? ‘He’s a big fan?’ You made me look like an ass.”

Ethan, rubbing the spot on his arm where I hit him, sucks his teeth. “You did that all on your own.” He steps past me and folds into the crowd.

I stand there, my heart racing, scanning the faces again. He’s there, a few feet away — the man who has me under a spell, makes me feel buttery inside. The man I want to love me forever. Crazy, I know … because I don’t know him. But isn’t that how relationships start? Out of curiosity and attraction? Or maybe even a weird, unhealthy infatuation?

Our eyes meet. I can feel my lips curling into a smile. When Sean winks, I’m rock hard in a flash. I hold myself back. I want to walk over to him, take his face in my hands and press my lips to his. And let the kiss go on forever.

Then he’s gone, one more time devoured by the throng. I sigh, swept up in an emptiness always riding roughshod over my life — the aftereffect of one failed relationship after another. I snatch a wineglass of the tray of the passing server and take three big gulps. Drinking takes the edge off, yet I know I should stay sober. Sober, I won’t make a fool of myself. Sober is safer. I rise up on the tips of my toes and look for Ethan’s buzzed head. I see him near the bar and edge my way towards him.

I take two, maybe three steps when I feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn around, and my gaze latches onto those dreamy eyes. I’m seventeen years old again and trembling like I did while waiting for Grayson to respond to my invitation. The silence tortured me then. It tortures me now. I try to speak, but I can’t.

Sean smiles. “I hope you’re not rushing off.”

“No … I…” I swallow hard. Why can’t I say anything?

“Things should die down in a bit,” Sean says. “If you don’t have any plans, maybe we could go for a drink?”

I just stare, blinking magnificently.

“I’ll take that as a yes.” Sean chuckles. “I’ll find you.”

He’s gone again.

I do not — cannot — move as my heart swells. My face starts to hurt because I’m smiling so hard, already imagining our first kiss and the life we’ll build together. Suddenly, it hits me: this is my ‘prom’ night, and I’m there with the most popular guy in the room. Okay, it’s not exactly a prom, but it is a moment that could dramatically change my life.

The big question is … am I ready?

Oh, hell, yes.

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